Monday, August 25, 2014
Get a slow smartphone, Play Swing Copters!
I got to play Swing Copters (made by .GEARS) , and it's more fun than Flappy Bird, maybe because it isn't theme-related, because it was fun how the cute character was flying upwards trying not to be hit by those walls and swinging hammers
It was difficult at first, I was tapping endlessly trying to figure out how this character moves, believing by tapping a lot I would go upwards, like in the Flappy Bird version, but after a few frustrating tries, I got a little of what's going on. You tap once, it goes the other way around, you tap it again, it returns flying at one direction. It was either left or right, always upwards.
Even with that in mind, I got troubled by getting hit by those hammers, and they sure hit you from behind, but then you see it has some kind of movement, as if the cute character was dancing. When you tap the screen you would think it would automatically turn around, it turns around of course, but for a brief moment it still goes on one direction before going to the other direction. That lack of consideration made you collide with the objects and make you lose. Sure it was fun when I got desperate at times that happened.
But then I got the grip out of it and knew the flow of the movement and how I should go. Also it has to be with a certain rhythm, because if you stay at one direction, you may speed up and unable to stop going left when you supposed to go right. The movement is somewhat like a pendulum, tick, tock, tick, tock. You go like that and you have more chance to get a higher score.
But then I was looking at videos, and I saw, that the game went a little bit faster than mine, and then I thought: that's how I was getting more score than others, hehe.
So then it was my smartphone that made this game less stressful than others, I may take longer to get to the same score but I'm getting safer on obtaining it.
And on an Update data: hehe eventually they got Swing Copters to have an update, movement is more easy and obstacles easier to evade. But still, the same speed. If they have that same speed, so do I.
Just something I wanted to say about this game, it's cute, just people need patience to be more comfortable with it. People get influenced on other people, on media, and people are pressured on this fast-paced world. Most normal people aren't as good at videogames and having those apps on this normal world with the enough fame for all to play it, it's like a reaction chain ready to be triggered.
Labels:
Normal Talk,
Swing Copters
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
Breaking: Nerd Boy saved from Dental Disaster
"And just because I wanted to be 'brave' enough to deal it on my own >///<"
It's been a while since I get to see some clinic facility to deal with emergency maneuvers, real emergency they say. It's not that I wanted to admit it but it was still hard. You see, I have braces, I'm not just portraying my character just because of that. I do have braces to deal, and it's been a long time I have it, it was supposed to have it ready, at least on a year ago. In fact, I was planning a "Braces Thing" series where I could talk about it. But problems arising and I don't know then. On the story.
Recently I had some dental adjustments where they place some of the tough 'metal-wired' thing around the upper teeth, and have it all adjusted with an array of tight 'suspenders' or those things around the braces but they were together, it looks like a chain. The thing is, almost completely with that, one of those things that get with the last teeth got detached. It wasn't dangerous and seems to be fine to at least be there. I didn't care as I didn't want to spend more time on that either. I got home and then I noticed it was too tedious to eat with that situation on hand. Again I didn't care a lot because I got to manage it.
Even in my sleep it was nice to deal with it. But yesterday, I tried to eat the best I could. Adding the fact the adjustment was hurting me, with all the tedious thing I was having a headache. Then I just tried to adjust it, move it around, I don't know, I did everything I had at my had to at least take it out. When I noticed my dental band was attached to another thing I couldn't take it away. Now my dental band had an alignment of 90 degrees downward, I just couldn't close my mouth. With that I wouldn't eat, nor sleep even!
But then I just returned home, as it nothing happened, I told I needed some arrangements to the dentist, but that It would be tomorrow, as if they didn't know how bad it was. In the afternoon I contacted them, but the receptionist said the one attending left already, and that I should call her tomorrow. Well, I was thinking on how to deal with it on the evening, but then down the kitchen my parents saw me and talked about my problem with my teeth, I just showed how it looked. They didn't liked how it looks.
They tried to help me to cut it out but it was useless. So the only option was to search some place to see some dentist to see what it can be done. It was around nine o'clock. Most of the places where it says 'dentist' were closed, but as they were driving and searching, I was a little scared on the insistence on having to look at someone to deal what they called an 'emergency' I wouldn't believe on that, or I didn't know what to expect.
We entered some clinic, this one was known because of one time I wanted to be Harry Potter without knowing him before (reserved for another story >///< ). We looked for a doctor that 'has the courage to deal with those situations' when I entered the lobby, I was being embarrassed of thinking that I really was to be treated as patient. Me still not understanding my emergency situation. I knew it was bothering me a lot but, why wasn't I thinking for that?
The clinic said they couldn't attend those kind of situations, but said the other clinic, conventionally located a few streets away, may deal with it. It was turning to be a lost hope. But they didn't think of that and we went there. I couldn't appreciate well before the location we arrived then has some nice installments. So then we entered and we explained the situation to the receptionists (the last one there seem to not to be any) when they looked by far my mouth they right away talked as to see they could deal with it. Somehow some nice looking man (I said nice looking because he looked young in red-blue shirt and jeans and a well maintained beard >///<) entered and somehow greeted my parent. [The position of the Enlightened of Wisdom is famous with its pupils] Said he worked here. And when we explained why we were here, he got a thought look, as if how can we deal with this. Basically he is the man indicated for the job.
He entered to see how to deal it and then it let me enter to one of the clinic rooms, all and hospital bed and lots of utensils and, well, hospital things.... *worried look* I knew the maneuvers to be were orthodontic, and to deal with the powerful wire and all the bondings that didn't let that bothering thing to get out. After a few minutes of techniques that were splendid, everything was done. And without even knowing it that thing was out of my way and I could close my mouth more easily. We thanked the doctor, to be in the way to saved us (to save me >///<) My parent said it was some sort of "Attraction Law" that everything occurred the way it occurred. I don't know if I wanted to make assortment to that. But well, the thing is I could sleep better.
Thinking of a time like this, I get to wonder how I would react if I were to manage another similar or worse situation like this, should I really care or should I would let it be...? Well depending if that is hurting enough, but if I didn't considered this dental problem an emergency issue is because I would be able to manage it, but I thing it turned beyond my position of control.
I'm just ashamed for thinking that.
I'm thinking of really make my braces adventures a series of posts, once I can grasp the position of this blog,
It's been a while since I get to see some clinic facility to deal with emergency maneuvers, real emergency they say. It's not that I wanted to admit it but it was still hard. You see, I have braces, I'm not just portraying my character just because of that. I do have braces to deal, and it's been a long time I have it, it was supposed to have it ready, at least on a year ago. In fact, I was planning a "Braces Thing" series where I could talk about it. But problems arising and I don't know then. On the story.
Recently I had some dental adjustments where they place some of the tough 'metal-wired' thing around the upper teeth, and have it all adjusted with an array of tight 'suspenders' or those things around the braces but they were together, it looks like a chain. The thing is, almost completely with that, one of those things that get with the last teeth got detached. It wasn't dangerous and seems to be fine to at least be there. I didn't care as I didn't want to spend more time on that either. I got home and then I noticed it was too tedious to eat with that situation on hand. Again I didn't care a lot because I got to manage it.
Even in my sleep it was nice to deal with it. But yesterday, I tried to eat the best I could. Adding the fact the adjustment was hurting me, with all the tedious thing I was having a headache. Then I just tried to adjust it, move it around, I don't know, I did everything I had at my had to at least take it out. When I noticed my dental band was attached to another thing I couldn't take it away. Now my dental band had an alignment of 90 degrees downward, I just couldn't close my mouth. With that I wouldn't eat, nor sleep even!
But then I just returned home, as it nothing happened, I told I needed some arrangements to the dentist, but that It would be tomorrow, as if they didn't know how bad it was. In the afternoon I contacted them, but the receptionist said the one attending left already, and that I should call her tomorrow. Well, I was thinking on how to deal with it on the evening, but then down the kitchen my parents saw me and talked about my problem with my teeth, I just showed how it looked. They didn't liked how it looks.
They tried to help me to cut it out but it was useless. So the only option was to search some place to see some dentist to see what it can be done. It was around nine o'clock. Most of the places where it says 'dentist' were closed, but as they were driving and searching, I was a little scared on the insistence on having to look at someone to deal what they called an 'emergency' I wouldn't believe on that, or I didn't know what to expect.
We entered some clinic, this one was known because of one time I wanted to be Harry Potter without knowing him before (reserved for another story >///< ). We looked for a doctor that 'has the courage to deal with those situations' when I entered the lobby, I was being embarrassed of thinking that I really was to be treated as patient. Me still not understanding my emergency situation. I knew it was bothering me a lot but, why wasn't I thinking for that?
The clinic said they couldn't attend those kind of situations, but said the other clinic, conventionally located a few streets away, may deal with it. It was turning to be a lost hope. But they didn't think of that and we went there. I couldn't appreciate well before the location we arrived then has some nice installments. So then we entered and we explained the situation to the receptionists (the last one there seem to not to be any) when they looked by far my mouth they right away talked as to see they could deal with it. Somehow some nice looking man (I said nice looking because he looked young in red-blue shirt and jeans and a well maintained beard >///<) entered and somehow greeted my parent. [The position of the Enlightened of Wisdom is famous with its pupils] Said he worked here. And when we explained why we were here, he got a thought look, as if how can we deal with this. Basically he is the man indicated for the job.
He entered to see how to deal it and then it let me enter to one of the clinic rooms, all and hospital bed and lots of utensils and, well, hospital things.... *worried look* I knew the maneuvers to be were orthodontic, and to deal with the powerful wire and all the bondings that didn't let that bothering thing to get out. After a few minutes of techniques that were splendid, everything was done. And without even knowing it that thing was out of my way and I could close my mouth more easily. We thanked the doctor, to be in the way to saved us (to save me >///<) My parent said it was some sort of "Attraction Law" that everything occurred the way it occurred. I don't know if I wanted to make assortment to that. But well, the thing is I could sleep better.
Thinking of a time like this, I get to wonder how I would react if I were to manage another similar or worse situation like this, should I really care or should I would let it be...? Well depending if that is hurting enough, but if I didn't considered this dental problem an emergency issue is because I would be able to manage it, but I thing it turned beyond my position of control.
I'm just ashamed for thinking that.
I'm thinking of really make my braces adventures a series of posts, once I can grasp the position of this blog,
Labels:
Daily Life,
Nerdy Issues
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Random Post of the Month
Hello, I know it's been a while since I write here, a lot happened though, which it was time-consuming enough for me to take a break on some activities I was active before. I keep trying to re-establish everything for better solutions on organization, resource and generation of content.
I'm confident I can reach a certain level of productivity without times where I get too sleepy to do anything, I want to concentrate those for my times of sleeping, still recovering from my schedule.
As this random post of the month, I say, I'm using lots of sources I can make my generation of content, like better keyboard for fast typing and, other things I need to achieve. As a developer, even if it isn't needed at much, hardware is important to not losing time at moments. And for sure I don't want to travel to the sleep world knowing I'm losing my precious time for not making some developing, and of course I know I need to take my break, do a little exercise and not overdoing things when I'm not feeling well. Common sense it is.
In a lot of ways I can achieve what I want, only a matter of time and patience, only a matter of self-confidence and nice steps on looking around me and little achievements of life.
I'm still want to learn lots of things for a short time, not losing it for little things that can break anything not special. Somehow last year's learnings are helping me in a greater way than others, I just need some special action to continue, well I'm traveling the way and looking at flowers while walking, no we're still on the go.
I won't say anything else for know, let's just hope to search more what I'm doing, and say I won't leave any of my pages behind. I'll try to uphold those pages together and staying active.
Aaand, I keep delaying my evolution process on this blog, keep the patience with me and I'll do something about it. It just, this blog layout is still cute since the moment I placed it here.
I still like the background I have, maybe I'll use the same style for the other one :P
I'm confident I can reach a certain level of productivity without times where I get too sleepy to do anything, I want to concentrate those for my times of sleeping, still recovering from my schedule.
As this random post of the month, I say, I'm using lots of sources I can make my generation of content, like better keyboard for fast typing and, other things I need to achieve. As a developer, even if it isn't needed at much, hardware is important to not losing time at moments. And for sure I don't want to travel to the sleep world knowing I'm losing my precious time for not making some developing, and of course I know I need to take my break, do a little exercise and not overdoing things when I'm not feeling well. Common sense it is.
In a lot of ways I can achieve what I want, only a matter of time and patience, only a matter of self-confidence and nice steps on looking around me and little achievements of life.
I'm still want to learn lots of things for a short time, not losing it for little things that can break anything not special. Somehow last year's learnings are helping me in a greater way than others, I just need some special action to continue, well I'm traveling the way and looking at flowers while walking, no we're still on the go.
I won't say anything else for know, let's just hope to search more what I'm doing, and say I won't leave any of my pages behind. I'll try to uphold those pages together and staying active.
Aaand, I keep delaying my evolution process on this blog, keep the patience with me and I'll do something about it. It just, this blog layout is still cute since the moment I placed it here.
I still like the background I have, maybe I'll use the same style for the other one :P
Friday, July 4, 2014
After that moment
After that moment I realized
how stupid I am letting my guard down upon a moment of Outrageous Distortion just to see the damage was done...
I don't want feel the Great Wide Bonding Protection to be shattered by little by things I can't handle... by events I can't even control...!
It's NOT the TIME for THAT! Why that happened? It's supposed to protect all of Base Position the source of power of the Central Position...
Only Final Time would fade it away by little and that's normal, but that directly corrupt the Base Position to the root is unforgivable...!
I felt that once since the Wide Protection started its function, but this time, it was on a nearer bonding distance than mine...!
I'm scared, because of the similar stats of the bonding, unconditional follower of indirect data flowing, but now no flow could be received.
how stupid I am letting my guard down upon a moment of Outrageous Distortion just to see the damage was done...
I don't want feel the Great Wide Bonding Protection to be shattered by little by things I can't handle... by events I can't even control...!
It's NOT the TIME for THAT! Why that happened? It's supposed to protect all of Base Position the source of power of the Central Position...
Only Final Time would fade it away by little and that's normal, but that directly corrupt the Base Position to the root is unforgivable...!
I felt that once since the Wide Protection started its function, but this time, it was on a nearer bonding distance than mine...!
I'm scared, because of the similar stats of the bonding, unconditional follower of indirect data flowing, but now no flow could be received.
I shouldn't have worried
but it made me so
because the protection covered that area
and now it has a fissure
untouchable by anyone anymore..
If that's the harsh way, well
I didn't know
it just proves I still can't grasp reality
the real one
that is way more that I can cover myself
And that
the Great Wide Bonding Protection
isn't immune to those kind of attacks
cruel movements of reality
that unusually shatters my heart
I'm just a boy
oblivious to the world
submerged into my own
shy on inside, awkward on outside
timid to ask, to join,and to be noticed too...
My power wants to protect everyone I know
so that people can be happy
so that people know there's someone
who can give motivation to all....
Labels:
Writing
Monday, June 30, 2014
Just before mid-year ends...
..., something has to take me off-balance on unusual levels.
It's like, you're prepared to face great high-leveled creatures, but then a turnaround of events flip over the charts and then you face a creature of overwhelming power, not because of the level, because the flip over turned the stats against him, leaving you on a great disadvantage, nothing could be done before his first and utmost attack what will wipe you out of the play-field.
Then, at the Game Over screen, you start crying. You start to feel sad, and ideas come of your mind, not understanding anything of what happened. You stand up, trying to be strong, and enter again, pressing continue. There was no other option.
But as you see the game field again, an unusual feeling, that same feeling you felt when the things turned against you. High speed sounds and moving objects, facing the unusual get around of the battle. Enemies are the same but somehow their stats were a little bit different, it may be higher, it may be lower.
Everything is different, and the pressure is still on, you don't know how long you're gonna be able to handle the ambiance.... The boss fight is on again, and you didn't get surprised by its opening attack, still it was shocking. You stand there as your Wide Retribution covers most of the field, trying to at least impede the boss from approaching to you. All you can do is recognize the field and take some key points and resources with you. With a strong punch broke your shield, and with another one, threw you out of the field again....
Game over for you, but the emotional pain was too much. Since the start, a strong pressure was consuming all that energy, and because of that, your recovery would take longer, before entering the unusual zone.
This is what you'll do: enter the zone, be aware of the consuming motion, try to be the most objective possible, not being carried away with the sensation. Know the area and reach key spots for saving, there could be no possible way everything could be covered by the pressure. Try to cover yourself if you can. And, when you're at the boss, quickly avoid the attack, and then get away. The strong punch could break away your emotional status. It's better to find better strategies each time you enter the zone rather than go full force and get beaten uncountable times.
It's a safe bet, so when you finally decide to stand against the beast, you know better what to say, and what to do.
*sigh*, those are the things that happen in my mind, things that I can't handle, until I can accept reality with all its consequences.... It's harsh, but, we're still here....
It's like, you're prepared to face great high-leveled creatures, but then a turnaround of events flip over the charts and then you face a creature of overwhelming power, not because of the level, because the flip over turned the stats against him, leaving you on a great disadvantage, nothing could be done before his first and utmost attack what will wipe you out of the play-field.
Then, at the Game Over screen, you start crying. You start to feel sad, and ideas come of your mind, not understanding anything of what happened. You stand up, trying to be strong, and enter again, pressing continue. There was no other option.
But as you see the game field again, an unusual feeling, that same feeling you felt when the things turned against you. High speed sounds and moving objects, facing the unusual get around of the battle. Enemies are the same but somehow their stats were a little bit different, it may be higher, it may be lower.
Everything is different, and the pressure is still on, you don't know how long you're gonna be able to handle the ambiance.... The boss fight is on again, and you didn't get surprised by its opening attack, still it was shocking. You stand there as your Wide Retribution covers most of the field, trying to at least impede the boss from approaching to you. All you can do is recognize the field and take some key points and resources with you. With a strong punch broke your shield, and with another one, threw you out of the field again....
Game over for you, but the emotional pain was too much. Since the start, a strong pressure was consuming all that energy, and because of that, your recovery would take longer, before entering the unusual zone.
This is what you'll do: enter the zone, be aware of the consuming motion, try to be the most objective possible, not being carried away with the sensation. Know the area and reach key spots for saving, there could be no possible way everything could be covered by the pressure. Try to cover yourself if you can. And, when you're at the boss, quickly avoid the attack, and then get away. The strong punch could break away your emotional status. It's better to find better strategies each time you enter the zone rather than go full force and get beaten uncountable times.
It's a safe bet, so when you finally decide to stand against the beast, you know better what to say, and what to do.
*sigh*, those are the things that happen in my mind, things that I can't handle, until I can accept reality with all its consequences.... It's harsh, but, we're still here....
Saturday, May 31, 2014
The one who led me to the Internet World [A STORY...]
[KIND OF...]
It was a ordinary day, like any other, I would look at the computer seeing if some Paint sketch was interesting to do. Already entering Middle School, and a lot of things yet to happen. I was still a kid and much of the world that I didn't know at that time.
At that moment you knocked the front door and I saw you. You're that kid I had a great time spending at Elementary School, on those last years of being children. Seeing your colored glasses was simply amazing.
When I got to see you, you asked me one question: What is my e-mail? At that time, I think I didn't have an e-mail account, not even know what the Internet is. I could know that it would happen, because at school I was utterly blamed by one homework I didn't do on the computer, I didn't have one at that time, nor a way to research what they asked. But seems like everyone was getting into these things they called Internet. Even commercials were talking about it. I was unaware about it, but somehow I wanted to know more.
You were the one that made me enter an amazing world I was yet to discover, but even if we just get to know better, I had lots of issues with myself, and the only thing that were connecting us, was our e-mail user accounts.
I remember spending more time with you at recess, playing Pokemon Trading Card Game matches. I didn't have the money to buy it, nor even know where to find it. I find more interesting having a copy on those cards, even if they look black and white. Despite that you lend me some of yours and started playing. It was awesome! I would love playing with you.
Though you were mean with me at start, I don't know exactly what happened, but you were picking me on constantly on things I didn't know. Or I was too weak to receive your little fists on my shoulders as if a salutation was made. I called mom, and mom talked to you not to be mean with me. Didn't know how you reacted but then you ended being mean with me.
After that time, we became friends. At recess we would spend most of the time together, playing more card games, talking a little bit, playing childish games, clapping our hands in a fashion manner, even tickling games, I got tickled the most
until a point I almost wasn't able to handle all the laughing and such. Playing at the sand and try to build imaginary worlds, and smash them with our hands.
Then the last year came another friend with us and we spent the time together. We would play most of the time, and sometimes I would cry at my frustrations on not winning games with you. Then other two girls were playing with us and we would have the perfect team on recess time. It was all what I wanted to happen!
Sadly, it didn't last. What will keep us apart was after graduation. I knew we will go to separate schools, that we wouldn't spend time on another recess again. Remember right at the ceremony talking about twin girls appearing at a show acted by one person, and Pokemon Crystal, trying our best to solve the puzzle of the Unown. I didn't even had that game but with that I would always remind myself to keep playing Pokemon all the time.
Even after that, you invited to your house lots of times, we would play with your games on the computer and on the Play Station you had. Remember playing the Sims with you, trying to keep our player healthy and clean, then playing arcade games like Capcom vs SNK and Soul Callibur II, as you have it more, it was more obvious you would beat me on those games, it was obvious. We would talk on chat on so many things I don't know if it was a lot or only it was something.
You still had your ideas, and my other friend envied you somehow, it was confusing having two friends who can't comprehend each other, still it was a nice thing going to your house and play. But then some day you said you can't receive me, but it was okay, so I could go the next time, but it was the same. And then one day I go to your house calling at you, trying my best to see if you were there, but you didn't answered. I resigned and returned home. It was the last time I tried to see you.
We didn't lose contact though, I knew you were there on the Internet, we didn't talked too much, but you were still there. Clearly enough we maintained our Messenger e-mail accounts, and it was all right. Didn't feel the need to talk to you though, maybe I was scared to be rejected again, no one seemed to notice that. And though that distance of our houses wasn't long, my insecuritues and our different path clearly make distant our encounter.
I became shy, but I knew one day I would overcome this and start making reencounters with people. the ones I really cared about. We would see us again on Social Media where I started late, again, and, I could clearly see you playing games like I am, it was nice playing games, and didn't know you're were good at typing. It was a challenge I wanted to beat.
One day I had a dream. I was in a forest, it was all colorful green, the sunlight made the tree leaves brighter, I was running, and I stopped at some piece of wood, fallen from an old tree. Then I saw you, smiling, looking at me with some bright in your eyes, it was cool to see you! I always wanted to talk things, how everything's going, what becoming of our lives, if we can become friends again..., then you went apart of where I am, still seeing at me, you just went away and I was chasing at you. Waking up, I just feel nice to see you in a dream, feeling the sensation I can really see you some time....
But then, one day, one call, received by mom, and some minutes after, would give me a shocking sensation I've never felt before.... Mom told me, and I just couldn't understand. Who are you talking to? Are you really sure it was him? It could be someone else, it couldn't be him....
They didn't mention your name, making it more confusing the situation. So that would mean, yesterday you were there somewhere, but now you weren't there anymore.... But strange enough, I felt nothing about it. Didn't make me sad, just shocked, and confused. I kinda denied it, and I thought you were still there, somewhere around here, I didn't really wanted to search more than that I had already received.
There were days and days thinking about you, and though I knew where they going to make a proper goodbye, I didn't go. I just couldn't. How can I properly approach to you when we were distant from each other? I felt weird not going, but I didn't know what it surrounded you. I'm a stranger to them....
There were days when I was really confused when I see you on status updates, you were appearing! As if someone wanted you to keep you alive! But then I was only an illusion, and northing more were posted related to you.
That's when I realized, you were gone....
I told my best friend, looked that he was the last he knew about it. But what he didn't know is how I really wanted to be more in touch. He didn't even know well the situation, but I guess it was still something out of our ambiance, but I didn't think of it as such, even if it was true.
Around all these years, sometimes I think about you, about how great you were, on how you liked Pokemon, your way you talk, about your fascination about Sailor Venus, and your like on Sailor Moon. You were the only I know that like me liked the series. All what you have left, and your smile. I don't know why I like your smile. But I like it. And your colorful glasses. At least that's what I remembered about you. Looking at your face on your profile, you didn't had your glasses, maybe you had changed on your face, but still you were the same.
I want to be honest to you. I like you the way you are, despite our differences. And..., I really wanted to meet again. I really do.
Maybe, once I get the time, I'll meet you where you stay, and, maybe I can give you a proper goodbye...
I want to cry your departure, and say I really cared about you going away, that I wasn't cold to think on such things, that I wasn't indifferent, that I REALLY...
..., miss you a lot.
I would think, for the last time, you would appear, and looked at me, I would like to think, you remembered me, who I am and all the things we've done together, and finally say to me
"It's all right, you don't have to worry."
Feeling like a hug I could embrace you and comfort me but you keep telling me I shouldn't worry. And then you would say
"Thank you. For being part of my life"
[Last line is the Alternative Title...]
It was a ordinary day, like any other, I would look at the computer seeing if some Paint sketch was interesting to do. Already entering Middle School, and a lot of things yet to happen. I was still a kid and much of the world that I didn't know at that time.
At that moment you knocked the front door and I saw you. You're that kid I had a great time spending at Elementary School, on those last years of being children. Seeing your colored glasses was simply amazing.
When I got to see you, you asked me one question: What is my e-mail? At that time, I think I didn't have an e-mail account, not even know what the Internet is. I could know that it would happen, because at school I was utterly blamed by one homework I didn't do on the computer, I didn't have one at that time, nor a way to research what they asked. But seems like everyone was getting into these things they called Internet. Even commercials were talking about it. I was unaware about it, but somehow I wanted to know more.
You were the one that made me enter an amazing world I was yet to discover, but even if we just get to know better, I had lots of issues with myself, and the only thing that were connecting us, was our e-mail user accounts.
I remember spending more time with you at recess, playing Pokemon Trading Card Game matches. I didn't have the money to buy it, nor even know where to find it. I find more interesting having a copy on those cards, even if they look black and white. Despite that you lend me some of yours and started playing. It was awesome! I would love playing with you.
Though you were mean with me at start, I don't know exactly what happened, but you were picking me on constantly on things I didn't know. Or I was too weak to receive your little fists on my shoulders as if a salutation was made. I called mom, and mom talked to you not to be mean with me. Didn't know how you reacted but then you ended being mean with me.
After that time, we became friends. At recess we would spend most of the time together, playing more card games, talking a little bit, playing childish games, clapping our hands in a fashion manner, even tickling games, I got tickled the most
until a point I almost wasn't able to handle all the laughing and such. Playing at the sand and try to build imaginary worlds, and smash them with our hands.
Then the last year came another friend with us and we spent the time together. We would play most of the time, and sometimes I would cry at my frustrations on not winning games with you. Then other two girls were playing with us and we would have the perfect team on recess time. It was all what I wanted to happen!
Sadly, it didn't last. What will keep us apart was after graduation. I knew we will go to separate schools, that we wouldn't spend time on another recess again. Remember right at the ceremony talking about twin girls appearing at a show acted by one person, and Pokemon Crystal, trying our best to solve the puzzle of the Unown. I didn't even had that game but with that I would always remind myself to keep playing Pokemon all the time.
Even after that, you invited to your house lots of times, we would play with your games on the computer and on the Play Station you had. Remember playing the Sims with you, trying to keep our player healthy and clean, then playing arcade games like Capcom vs SNK and Soul Callibur II, as you have it more, it was more obvious you would beat me on those games, it was obvious. We would talk on chat on so many things I don't know if it was a lot or only it was something.
You still had your ideas, and my other friend envied you somehow, it was confusing having two friends who can't comprehend each other, still it was a nice thing going to your house and play. But then some day you said you can't receive me, but it was okay, so I could go the next time, but it was the same. And then one day I go to your house calling at you, trying my best to see if you were there, but you didn't answered. I resigned and returned home. It was the last time I tried to see you.
We didn't lose contact though, I knew you were there on the Internet, we didn't talked too much, but you were still there. Clearly enough we maintained our Messenger e-mail accounts, and it was all right. Didn't feel the need to talk to you though, maybe I was scared to be rejected again, no one seemed to notice that. And though that distance of our houses wasn't long, my insecuritues and our different path clearly make distant our encounter.
I became shy, but I knew one day I would overcome this and start making reencounters with people. the ones I really cared about. We would see us again on Social Media where I started late, again, and, I could clearly see you playing games like I am, it was nice playing games, and didn't know you're were good at typing. It was a challenge I wanted to beat.
One day I had a dream. I was in a forest, it was all colorful green, the sunlight made the tree leaves brighter, I was running, and I stopped at some piece of wood, fallen from an old tree. Then I saw you, smiling, looking at me with some bright in your eyes, it was cool to see you! I always wanted to talk things, how everything's going, what becoming of our lives, if we can become friends again..., then you went apart of where I am, still seeing at me, you just went away and I was chasing at you. Waking up, I just feel nice to see you in a dream, feeling the sensation I can really see you some time....
But then, one day, one call, received by mom, and some minutes after, would give me a shocking sensation I've never felt before.... Mom told me, and I just couldn't understand. Who are you talking to? Are you really sure it was him? It could be someone else, it couldn't be him....
They didn't mention your name, making it more confusing the situation. So that would mean, yesterday you were there somewhere, but now you weren't there anymore.... But strange enough, I felt nothing about it. Didn't make me sad, just shocked, and confused. I kinda denied it, and I thought you were still there, somewhere around here, I didn't really wanted to search more than that I had already received.
There were days and days thinking about you, and though I knew where they going to make a proper goodbye, I didn't go. I just couldn't. How can I properly approach to you when we were distant from each other? I felt weird not going, but I didn't know what it surrounded you. I'm a stranger to them....
There were days when I was really confused when I see you on status updates, you were appearing! As if someone wanted you to keep you alive! But then I was only an illusion, and northing more were posted related to you.
That's when I realized, you were gone....
I told my best friend, looked that he was the last he knew about it. But what he didn't know is how I really wanted to be more in touch. He didn't even know well the situation, but I guess it was still something out of our ambiance, but I didn't think of it as such, even if it was true.
Around all these years, sometimes I think about you, about how great you were, on how you liked Pokemon, your way you talk, about your fascination about Sailor Venus, and your like on Sailor Moon. You were the only I know that like me liked the series. All what you have left, and your smile. I don't know why I like your smile. But I like it. And your colorful glasses. At least that's what I remembered about you. Looking at your face on your profile, you didn't had your glasses, maybe you had changed on your face, but still you were the same.
I want to be honest to you. I like you the way you are, despite our differences. And..., I really wanted to meet again. I really do.
Maybe, once I get the time, I'll meet you where you stay, and, maybe I can give you a proper goodbye...
I want to cry your departure, and say I really cared about you going away, that I wasn't cold to think on such things, that I wasn't indifferent, that I REALLY...
..., miss you a lot.
I would think, for the last time, you would appear, and looked at me, I would like to think, you remembered me, who I am and all the things we've done together, and finally say to me
"It's all right, you don't have to worry."
Feeling like a hug I could embrace you and comfort me but you keep telling me I shouldn't worry. And then you would say
"Thank you. For being part of my life"
[Last line is the Alternative Title...]
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