Friendship and First Days of School

I don't mind being alone, but when you see a person sharing things you like, that’s another thing.

    That's what happens when you enter a world in which lots of people are gathered in one place, no matter how big or small the place it is, to share some moment of their life, to share something you have on your main ambiance. Some family events, normal things of television, music, series, games, main events of life, some recommendations, things to increase their friendship, and an invitation to continue the bond application outside the place.
    They say School is a great friendship starting point. On the first days, you know your classmates and start to talk with each other, to see which ones are the most likely to share the same interest. You see the fun on some of them and how they spend their time on cool things. At the end of a week or two, most of the people must have had at least one friend to spend on the free time, on recess, or after school time, or at least at the time you can reach him/her at the classroom.
    Some classmates started School with friends they have met on previous occasions, and add one or two to the group of friends, previously presented and approved to be part of that group. In that day that everybody decide who will be the ones they want to spend time, little modifications may occur: someone would want to increase in some skill or in some hobby, so he changes his friendship position, a normal change, maybe thanking the previous for being part of their friendship, maybe encounter them on another occasion, and after that he joins the other group, or after some time being absent in some group, he rejoins the previous with new ideas to share and lots of awesome things to do.
    So, after the starting point of meeting each other, how they behave and how to handle each other, they are ready to spend the time together on recess time.
    The main point is that after the closure of the friendship invitation, future entering of other’s group is way more difficult, especially if you’re one of the very few people that spend recess mostly alone, with a few friends to follow or with groups that you follow, so you don’t feel completely lonely. You follow those groups, because in some way they say something interesting to hear, something interesting to know. You are actually not part of their group of their friendship, but in order to have something to do; you tend to imitate other’s idea of talking, of friendship.
    When it comes to recess on a scheduled time on a specified place, the term of the following is applicable, but when it comes to free time on a defined time in a wider scheduled one on a wider place, you only see the people, but not what they are doing, so after the established time, if you haven’t got into a group, it’s more likely to be alone, and feel the pressure of others talking about the things they share.
    Now, in that kind of situations, I don’t mind being alone, but when you know someone who in a group talks about the things you like, that’s what things change. You can’t be comfortable knowing that you are in a place where the most common thing to do outside the classroom is socialize with other people and making friends. But lots of generations of lots of different specialties are there into one place. And all that chatting and laughing overwhelms me a lot, especially on the first days. When I’m on that ambiance again after a good time vacations, I feel weird. A lot of people of different behaviors and personalities, all gathered again to spend the time there. I do have my time of being a good friend, but the amount of awesomeness of those whose friendship has awesome things is too high for me to handle, because I’ll know I don’t have lots of resources to change their strong-based bubble of friendship, neither the time to maybe spend the time with them properly if I actually had. I wish I could have those….
    I have always into other things, because I haven’t really experienced true friendship in its maximum motion. For me, it’s when you spend lots of time with friends in a place far away from other groups, doing what their like, and having lots of fun and laughs, you feel true happiness inside, and you think by yourself, even if it’s too hasty, that you had some of your most amazing things in life. I wish that happens too….
    Disruption of Motion and lots of start over, loss of fear of shyness and lots of awesome conversation to do. Double the effort to be at the level of their expectations of friendship. I know I would finish saying that I would like to be alone all the time and care less for them, but the School shock of making friends and not feeling alone knowing they have fun but you, makes me do additional effort to caring for them.