Great Support Gathering Motion

"Great Support Gathering Motion" is about to begin.
I need your help.
It's just a matter of a minute or two of your attention in order to  obtain valuable motivational words of wisdom from you. There are some points of my life that were left behind unfinished, some rupture between all a timeline that were corrupted and never repaired. Some points that I have been carrying all the time that weren't useful to make new changes. I'm trying to repair all of them.
Also the motivational wisdom will be able to unlock most of the blocked memories and inhibitions so the light on the Position can shine brighter like the time before all those weird things happened around me. If I couldn't get on you the same way you do on others, it's because of some blocked motion.
I know I can't tell everything in order to make attention, and I know I wouldn't use my experiences so I can get something, but it is just a moment of attention that I lacked sometimes... I didn't want to say it, but sometimes I feel that loneliness covers around me, and I feel kinda sad about it. I know that I can recover from it whatever I want, but I just don't want to live that way if I know I can be more than what I am right now.
I know also that I don't demand friendship a lot, even if people seems to be the ones who want to be heard, caring less to others. I know if I keep this is because I can live with that, but I know that it will be one time that I would not stand upon that living.
I don't know what to obtain from all this, I just know I'm different from all the people, and that if I have to do those kind of actions in order to make an attention to everyone, just to make a great repair, is because I'm just a different person, who lived different things, and thought different ideas...
I just want to do the things better, but resources seems to lack on me, I just couldn't get all the info to make a good sharing, so maybe I'm not the best on all this. I know people care. I know people are social. I know I can overcome all this, and then renew myself.
So yeah. I can give you motivations, like this: Just be happy and do what you need to do!
I feel my shyness is getting less prominent, even though is nice to act awkward to silly moments. Maybe I don't care less of what I do, people seems to consider my way of life, I guess..., so after I feel from the wisdom of you that I'm just in the right direction, a little change and be clear to be a better person. And so make a great consideration to you, like you do to other people.
Have a nice day!

Between trips to the mall and holiday posadas

    Lots of things to do and so little time..! >////< I hope you have some holiday season and give a good meaning on those last days of the year, hehehe....
    Ok, writing session of today. It’s mid-December!! D: And I haven’t got presents, or gifs, or something to share, or some experience to tell as always >.< ....
    Ok no, I had some, last time I had the courage to do something on my own. I went to the mall.... [Centro Comercial in English is shopping center/mall ,so.... shopping center.... hehe] It was like, I have some money to spend, but, what do I need the most right now, I thought. I needed how I was going to spend it.
    It was a normal Saturday morning, my usual user Motion update characterization on the computer and my usual and calm playing. I think I was willing to buy something but I didn't want anyone to prevent me from doing it, or looking at me with poor eyes.... I know I would buy something from them, but not now.... But in the afternoon, I went to a near shopping center to buy something special. I was aiming for some earphones, some cool earphones so I could hear with all clear frequencies the music, and maybe something else.
    I hear the palpitations of my heart with each step into the shopping mall; it was quite long with lots of stores and restaurants. I went around the mall and then I entered some electronic American shop. I saw instantly the earphones section, and with some searching I saw the ones I could pay for. But I got out of the store to look for other choices. Into the shopping center there was a big Christmas tree. I think since the start of the month that tree was there. Of course it’s holiday season.... Then other shops, some movie theater, a games shop, another electronic specific shop, some clothing shops and some grocery store.
    After I saw all options, there was no other than the earphones that I saw first. So I returned to claim the price and then I bought it. And then I returned home and when I tried it, the sound was awesome, so I like it.
    Then I was invited to some party, what we call "Posada" It’s just another party, but it has a meaning too, whatever they want to put it.... But the essence is the reminder of gratitude and good wishes, we all want good things to happen....
    Normal things, I just have known most of the people invited, so I wasn't as uncomfortable..., it was a good time, I suppose... hehe.
    So, as I said, lots of things to do >///<. I’ll do my best to end this year, even if I have to make everything in a rush :I

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Thoughts from last days - A time to talk about problems

    Hello, this is the time where I worry about my writing blog and start to make a great use of my creativity to make good posts and make as much as possible. So let’s get started now.

    I took a little time break to focus on some important issues to attend, and now that we are on December I’m glad that I can do lots of other things, but it seems like I have miscalculated the time I would really have that time. I can wait until mid December, but I need to make some adjustments so I can increase little by little the normal activities under my nickname (StndNerdBoy11).

    This is just an acknowledge point for this blog so you don’t be worried of myself, hehe. It’s just like lately I’m having one of those moments in my life where you feel like lost, like you don’t know what to do, like you don’t know why are you’re doing the things you have done until that day. I think that’s a normal thing, even though I don’t have a lot of energy to overcome more on that so I don’t fall again.

    Maybe it’s just because I don’t know if my life is normal enough to follow it or maybe it’s just because I don’t want to make a lot of effort..., because, It’s like you have some resources to talk to anyone, and you don’t do it.... You want some people talk only to you and you want some people to make a good conversation.... And also when you feel like going somewhere but you don’t have courage to go because you want to go with someone, or when you want to overcome something you can’t do it, but the ambiance is not enough so you can talk about it, something like that.... It’s seems like it’s like something normal.

    Because, if people don’t think that’s a problem, they shouldn't worry too much about it, because they know what to do. And it’s easy for them to do it, because when they know your problems they tell you that’s easy and that it’s only a matter of doing it. But what they can’t realize it’s your life and you have different problems that usually make a different obstacle, and that your comfort zone would yell if you step away from that zone....

    Maybe that’s my excuse of not doing it, maybe I have mislabeled in a different way or maybe they have mislabeled me wrongly. I may follow the label for some reason, but not completely. The problem with labels is that the moment they put one on you the most probable thing to happen is believe in that label, yourself, your parents, your friends, everyone. People in general tend to follow other people’s labels, and people tend to think fast and make attributions out of analysis. So if some event happened the labeled person would attribute his problems with what he has, but doing nothing about solving it. It’s a form of selfishness, thinking the others must do something about your problems....

    And so on, I would end one night or two feeling anxious about it, but it just passes away. I can’t blame about it, but it’s a reminder that I have to take a chance of getting up and make the try again, even if I fall again.

    I hope in another day to fix the things left behind and make my position active again. Just wait for it >///<.

When I'm not into a good mood....

    Well, I don't know, it's like if I want to get things done and it doesn't get there, I kinda react weird about it. Maybe it just happens.

    But well, today was one of those days, where only by the single touch of some event; a great development of ideas would make you feel uncomfortable.... I don't get it, it's like your entire body is feeling weird (even if you have taken a bath...); every external action is a little annoying and distracts you from your focus. Whatever little thing they do is enough to make me feel anxious. It’s like I wanted to solve something important and then my possibilities are not enough to solve it, no matter how I see it. I desperately want to find some answers, and it just doesn't appear!

    Then I get to the real world, weird breathing, I know I’m fine, a weird headache, from all the generated ideas, a weird sensation, lots of blushing, embarrassment, clumsy actions, a constant movement from the lack of calm, lots of egocentric antisocial behavior, and a tendency to break out when nobody sees me. People normally won’t recognize this. Why would they? I’m not likely to show this type of emotions....

    Then at home I feel like I can’t stay still; I can’t stay calm, nothing can make me change my behavior easily. I take out my glasses, I put it on again, my sweater is making me feel warm inside, but when I take it out, I feel cold; at least some blanket would suffice. But then the blanket is so heavy to have me around my shoulders, I return to my sweater again. I play a game, thinking it would make me stress out from anger, but it just surprises me more, thinking I can win, but keep on losing, and make me feel sad....

    And then at night, a lot of movement, a lot of lightning, lots of weird voices, a lot of complaining and one or two little rant with myself. Then when it seems like my desperation would come to a limit, it just simply stops. I don’t know why, but it does. I feel like I’m getting peaceful and with no negative sensations to feel or negative ideas to hear inside my mind. It just fades away.

    I want to explain why it happened, but know that I’m calm, there’s nothing to explain, only to think that the eventful moment of anxiousness was only something I've experienced across the day. No one witnessed my accelerated day you had, because I could feel my heart pumping faster than normal, I could feel my hasty movements, my precipitated behavior, and also my endless need of letting out all that emotion, but it just can’t.

    But now it has stopped, there’s no need now. Now I want to be that way for the rest of the night, and think about tomorrow, hoping this won’t happen again, although I’m not sure if I could make it true....


    But oh well, hehe, nothing to worry about, it was just a day, everyone must have had one of those days, but that’s alright, because you can expect a better day, you can expect you can make good objectives, you can expect you can be good with people....

Random Post of the Month

    It’s been a while that I visit here, in fact, it’s like not everybody I know would visit here..., even if I’m still making promotions and stuff. But still I like to write, just that my emotional thoughts and my everyday activities made me not doing it. So here are some random thoughts of today:
    I know that I’m not as good as everybody; I haven’t experienced the things other people had. I have seen it on their post they make every day here and in their photos and their own thoughts, of course it’s not like I have the time with all the things I have to do on a single day..., or that’s what I always think....
    Anyway, I could see how people are talking in a curious way I get amazed by it. I would want to compare it with all the other male people I have seen, starting with the clothing. Extroverted people like to dress in a fashioned way, so they can show a physical appearance and a very good look in their faces. They also like to make comments about the things that happen in the world and other things. It’s common here to have behaviors and thinking in relation to people of the world, or in other words, globalization has made a great influence in this place. Of course it’s my country, near other great country with a relative mindful range of opinions that make surprises to everyone else and make influences on them too; I also was affected with that.
    Internet and the American culture inscribed in it, there’s no deny I would want to feel the modern cultural actions and events they usually have. I know people that feel the same, but the difference is that I have discovered by myself; therefore I’m in this alone, for now.
    I’m not worried, even though I have made lots of instances of my position with nobody taking the chance to it, maybe because I’m not in reality immersed in it, for now. I know I have done some things a globalized person would do, having blogs and pages other than the Great Social Network. Also I have been into other pages with forums, even though I haven’t entered fully as a user, and saw lots of videos, heard good music and played good games.
    The fact is even if I’m not a person whose roots are of the American culture, the influence here is extremely high; you could hear the voices across the board (because our country is like his brother... hehehe). So it’s obvious that we would want to be like our brother and live peacefully. I can think that we could share lots of good things. And also it would be awesome to be friends with some native person living in the USA, even if direct roots wouldn't appoint to someone living there. And also it would be cool if one of the people I know that knows a lot about Globalized culture would share things to me that I haven’t experienced a lot about it.
    The influence of that culture is great and even so I would not want to lose mine, in fact I don’t want all the influence. I have my culture and traditions we gladly celebrate. Also its political, economical and social ideas, especially social ideas are quite something. Everything with the relationship and other weird things you could find if you search well, seems to be as normal if you can see it from the Internet perspective, which I could think in reality some things are quite reserved, but still normal. I can’t really tell it because, I haven’t experienced it yet.
    Of course I have read all of these, of course I have seen their positions and of course I may have one or two in a direct or indirect position. Even if they may have a point, I can’t really tell it until I find the right direction to make it viable into my real position, and until I could find a relatable thing near the Place of Action.
    >///< I’m still confused..., I think. I don’t really want to develop more and dissociate some points of what I can say in this Position of the Nick. Only I can say I want to talk to whatever people who want to share his time with me, or at least wants to make me a good comment and make me feel happy at that day, regardless of whoever he is.
    I know for sure my position is against topics that could aggrieve severely to someone’s living. I know everyone is deserved to live and make a good contribution to the world, the two great things we are designed to be here. Live and share your gift to the world. Sharing our gift is making others to be happy in difficult times, whatever his situation is. The thing that is at our hands is quite enough to make it happen.
    So, yeah, I don’t know yet. I’m just a boy who is still studying for something in order to get an income and be part of this society. Everything else is in stand-by, but I’m making my best to change that and be a very happy boy. I’m happy to know that, but in whatever situation I may encounter later, to whomever people, I know I can be good at it.

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