Against Mistreatment

     There is some sort of Awareness that in some objective essence says no make fun of the ones they are not like you, or don’t treat others in a way they feel inferior. The position of Motion stands against that kind of mistreatment, because it’s just a flow of not controlled emotions.
    In the Normal Position that stands with the Position of the Nick, I’m kind of a sensitive person, so I feel the pain and suffering inscribed on the messages of the users and on people too. It’s difficult to handle this but it seems that for them it’s easy to make a direct appointment of what they have gotten into, those kinda harsh moments in their life that in a way they made them feel low. When I hear and see those kinds of comments, I feel a little sad about it, because in a way I can relate to that. My position on School wasn’t as pleasant as normally it could be, but my focus on life was different and I just coped with the situation I was into. Nothing severe or dangerous.
    Of course I had my moments of despair and confusion about my situation. Thinking how could they wouldn't pay attention to my person and how most of people seems to take advantage of my kindness and shyness at that time to put me into situations I wasn't comfortable to hear, especially when you enter a different world where you don’t know anybody and you have to do all by yourself to gain some friend or two. At that time, it was hardly possible to make that possible.
    Furthermore, my shyness and my tendency to cry over things I wasn't capable to handle impeded me more to make expression of my feelings and likes to most of the people, it was kind of a barrier I was put to protect me from showing my real me, I would think. At least I would be too much of a center of attention.
    The thing is, how did I survive all the rejection from the people they don’t seem to care a lot for you? I feel sad when I hear things kind of worse than my own situation, because I can’t really visualize well how it feels like being really picked on by a group of people, and hearing that it just makes me feel sad, because of the flow motion they left behind, the emotions they charge, the impact they send. That’s why I don’t like to talk a lot about those things, it just brings attention in the way it’s not suitable.
    Because I have seen it, someone needs some affection in a post and discharges all the potential of negative thoughts, and of course the development of those ideas can increase in a way it could be believable. And making the discharge transmits the impact on others and makes the relation sending comments of stories or cheering up that person.
    I don’t have something against it, even though it would always affect those kinds of comments, because it’s awful to see the user that is trying to have a good life. I can relate to it because my childhood and some of my teen years weren't as great as a normal person, the thing I would see it as normal it was another thing, maybe that’s why I don’t care a lot about it.
    But then, I could find my comfort on making the motivation to those who needs somebody to tell his problems and ideas, someone who can be the position of listener who can share some time of his life making a good response if he wants to hear one. At the time I was lonely, it was my purpose: to be friends of those other people wouldn't want to be friends with. Maybe with that we could be the best of the friends.
    Unfortunately, I have tried, and ended in disruption because of single events that I couldn't handle. I thought my position of friendship was being corrupted by their silly thoughts and the influence of new kids that ended up being with the good guys of the school, making the separation being worse and making me to be lonely again. I wouldn't have been suffered a lot if I had only maintained that friendship…
    Yeah, as you can see, I can make the development of negative ideas, but I refrain to show them directly. If I ever want to tell something like this, my position must be as Objective to be able to stand upon the ideas I really want to express, and not to end in an emotional nonsense that only shows direct events and altering the emotional status of people. If I don’t like that something affect me negatively in emotion, I wouldn't do the same with my ideas…
    And as you can see, the Objective Essence that show the status day Awareness makes me feel like writing this. I know not lot of people would come and read this, if I ever do a great promotion of great motivation and share those kinds of stories…, but maybe that’s because my always present feeling of something that’s missing in my Actual Life and in my daily activities (and my reasons on why I’m standing as a User because of filling in that lack of satisfaction on my life…) makes me always feel sad about those situations.
    But if I ever can do is Motivation in Adversity, a supportive point of making things lighter. It’s up to ourselves and into the search of what we are and the support of everybody and the understanding of ourselves in order to make a stand against what it’s treating against ourselves.
    I’ll continue on my user supporting on the DeviantArt page, but try not to think always negative, even if it seems to be that way, even if they provoke you to feel that way. It’s better to feel somewhat happy or try to think in some happy start to develop positive ideas.

    [Yeah I know, I’m like the ones that want attention by receiving comments and making replies on that, but it’s easier to receive comments than making them. I have to be the one to make comments and do it all by myself. I would hope I can find someone who is likely to start a conversation to me the same way and in the same frequency as I can start a conversation…]
    [And yeah, two posts in a day, because this day is about to end…]

Drawing Impressions

 Hello, lots of things to tell on this month, and lots of things to make something useful to update the position of space of my web pages. This time, a Drawing Talk.
    I have been practicing a lot of drawing and then publishing some art on the DeviantArt and tumblr page. Lately I have entered some drawing contest and on last week I spent my time making a cool drawing for that contest. The cool thing was the printing in a 17" x 11" paper that drawing, which it was the first time.
    I was so excited to enter and that my drawing would be there among other drawings, so I have made some development and started some sketches on my notebook. Usually my school notebook is sometimes my sketch notebook… hehehe
    After some sketches, I decided on selecting one of them. One boy walking on the street, going to school with some backpack on his shoulders and a happy face. Also a nice background. I spent hours trying to make a neat lineart and making my drawing look special. I spent my weekend making that effort of making lines and color and shade the image. After all that work, my special drawing was done, and I was very happy with the results.
    The day of the printed hand in, I didn't have any idea where to print my image, at first, because I needed to find some copy shop near where I was. I thought of one, but I have wondered if they could print with the specifications I wanted. Luckily they had that kind of paper and that kind of size. So I hurried on printing and handing in the work to the ones that made the contest.
    After that, it was time of making the exposition of the work of everybody that has entered the contest. It was today. I told some of my friends and classmates to come and see my work, and some of them know that I draw and wanted to see that work. So in the afternoon, one hour after noon exactly, we visited those drawings. I was a little shy to see my work alone, because it would be there along with the others’ work. It was at some festival of languages (supposed that the ones who made the contest make the appointment to the Japanese language… because the style was manga styled)
    The time I handed in my work, I thought it may be a few of drawings (only like three or four), but when I went to see it all, it was like about fifteen.  Different anime style, different techniques (traditional drawing, digital drawing…), and different focus. Most of the drawings were about some original character they have made. A close up of those characters. One was like a manga page, pretty amazing. Other ones have a single background but they used well their colors. One traditional image was pretty amazing because of the technique of colors, and it was a close-up too. My drawing was placed very high, beside some other drawing with two characters.
    What I see different my drawing from the others is that my character wasn't as big as the others, but the compensation was the background, and because most of the images were close-ups, and because they were placed near to the eye to see, it was more impressing. But still my drawing was amazing. If I do a close-up like any other picture, it would be amazing as the others!
    Even so my classmates and friends say that I have the talent of making those drawings and I’m proud they have considered that. Also I’m happy they saw my drawing. Maybe if I have the chance I’ll make the price of making another print…. hehehe