A World and a Bridge

Meteors, meteors everywhere,
atmosphere of the wide world of matter
that fills the nothing and turns in an object
up to the luminous sky and into the cold sea.

Silence, the sound of void,
the wave that tells the sensation of the past
experience of time when we thought we'll be nice
'till the time when we saw they'll stepping away.

Impact, the shake of the word,
the moment your mind has grasped all the sounds
that feeling the body invades all around,
manifestation and rebound, the loop of the hit.

A word, a single word,
a bunch of words, a million of words.
A sentence, a single one,
a bunch of ones, a thousand of the same.

A being, a single being,
a bunch of people, the entire planet.
A world, a single world.
so many worlds, so many bridges,
new ones, broken ones,
unrepaired ones, unsustainable ones
all connected, neither is alone.

A side of the bridge, my world sees another,
as I walk along, the bridge shakes as usual,
then I step in the middle and the other too,
we see each other, a fear get stand up.

Earthquakes, tornados, eruptions, inundations,
the shaking, the dreadful thing that can't stand alone,
the blessing, the mysterious thing that surrounds all your world,
the comfort, relief that can't be explained.

A side of the bridge, I see my world again,
I survived another encounter, I don't know why,
my feelings, what would happen next?
When that world approaches again....

I see meteors, lots of them,
they just come but they don't cross the bridge....

Luminous Void

"Emptiness, the sign of nothing, a hollow in a wide area of thoughts, a sensation of feeling empty, be nothing, be no one.

Zero, the illusion of having a goal, understanding nothing, !(00000001b && (1<< BIT0)), turning off the switch, going down, alone in the space. 

Speechless, a normal being, without expression, without emotion, without friends, without feelings, not being understood by someone, being ignored, people passing by your space, unfocused vision, uncategorized.

Outside Venn's diagram, the other side of Gauss Integral, the division that results an Indeterminate, the limit no one plots, being the center of all x|x[-infinite ; +infinite]", simply 2-2.

The center of anything, the gravity that made far objects orbit around, without being approached, the sun, the star, the shining object that gives everything but if they are near they may not handle all of it

A black hole, our last form, absorbs everything, turns everyone into emptiness, a void, a being, a matter, who once was sun, who once was light, who once was kindness, a warm sensation. The one who gave it all, the one who shared its light, but space was empty, but still it was irradiating with light. And then a wide explosion, and then emptiness.

I was there, inside the black hole, being attracted by its force, not being able to get out.

I was there, my mind focused on the void, but the planets are there, but my focus was unchanged.

Darkness, that doesn't scare me. Even if I'm in a luminous room, being alone is what it scares me...."

Awkward shopping moments

    Think about an item you would likely feel nervous when buying it, and then place yourself in a situation you would likely to be embarrassed about it.

    If I were me, I would think the most awkward thing is when buying underwear or when buying items that are not for yours. But OK, let’s see why I’m telling this, and why I’m doing this post.

    It’s not like I got into a place and tried to buy something, but it’s like something you have to do. I don’t usually go to places to buy, my family usually do this, buying things to eat, the clothes, the accessories, health products and cleaning products. But I think daring yourself to do something like this is kind of worth it.

    Why? Because you’ll get the courage to do anything if you can face the other person, an unknown person, and have this interaction while he gets your merchandise into a bag and tells you how much it is. Having to face the cashier is something difficult, especially if you’re on your own. Usually in your family they ask you to go to the nearest department store to buy certain products for using it at home, but then you have to go all the way down to the store and select the products, paying it for it and carry the bags back to home.

    But there are the two main situations, the cashier wouldn't say something to you, or the cashier would look you strange carrying all of this. All depends on what does the cashier would say to you.

    And I’m of the people who don’t worry until they are acknowledged of the actions we make. At first I wouldn't dare to say something, so many years ago, my shyness was too strong for me so I could go and buy something. But also it was all about how much do you got for money....

    But of course time passes and you are a different person, with personal decisions, with desires and with all of the mentality of making awesome things.
    I know also what I would feel embarrassed of buying, when you go to certain store to buy plush toys and cute things, like anime products and video game characters. Because, trying to compare, I just have to be more otaku or more nerdy to feel like I need to buy it, and because I can’t get a lot of money and because I can’t spend my money all for that.

    Recently, I got into that situation, but nothing embarrassing happened. Maybe because he just didn’t ask me a lot. It’s just a matter of business. That’s all....

    But after that, I felt more confident on myself, I know I still have to learn to talk to people and tell what I’m aiming for. But that’s a big first step into seeing what I really want, and how I’m going to arrange my room so I can have space.

    See you soon.

A day of Visit – A Story

One day, at school, I was having a great time inside class. It was a great moment on my life where you can show everyone how good you were at multiplication tables. Our teacher always wanted us to learn very well and memorized the most important multiplications: 3x4, 5x6, 4x7, 5x9, 9x7, 7x8, and so on....

    Every day, at Math class, we would have this multiplication table contest to see which one was the fastest on answering the questions. All you have to do is fill the table and after that you hand in your notebook so you can have your first place mark. I usually have that mark, or 2nd or 3rd. I was happy that I was appreciated by that mention or by that recognition. It makes my life happy....

    But something was different that day. Mom came.

    I was in the middle of another contest when she came. It was unexpected that mom could come to class, but anyway I could be happy, but then I was not when she said I had to return home. I didn't like to return home when I was on class. I mean, it was school and I have to be there, but I had no choice but close my notebook, pick up my backpack and follow her to the front door of the school. I didn't know what was happening.

    After home, my other brothers were here too. She said we have to go to some dad’s friend house, because we cannot be here at home. I can’t believe what I was hearing, but at that time I didn't understand what was happening. Obeying as children we had to do, and so a woman came to pick up us. And then we would go to their house. It was afternoon.

    After that, she explained a little, mom has to stay in the hospital guarding dad, so we have to stay until all is stable. Inside the house was a family: a man, his wife, and their sons. We know them so we know we can have a great time here. In fact, we played videogames with them and other things. We lived on their rules and on their behaviors of their daily lives.

    We even had to stay the night with them, and then sleep with them too. Next morning, as their children went to school, we had to stay at this house. I wasn't pleased about it; we HAD to go to school too! But all we can do is play and stay here. All morning and the afternoon went away and, when night came, Mom came. I was very happy to see her, but then dad came too, so that meant we can go home and return to school. I was happy everything went back to normal....