When things are easy enough to do

     Hello. I don't know what I am doing right now , but I think I am writing something.  Looks like my words are too simple to say sometimes and I can't find a better way to write better things like this. I maybe struggle when I want to say an idea, but then I wonder if I can only do it again. 

In fact, I'm having a weird time. Trying to write while the taxi drives me home...

     It could be a crazy thing to do that, but in order to get a good idea, I will  have to do it this way. I will  continue posting regardless of what I  can receive as retribution,  or at least one or more ways to convince people I'm still here.

     And after a day or two trying to write something, I guess it's time for an addition to the data, and a little bit of information. I'm going to redact what are going to be my next postings on here, and I think I have enough elements to make a new design. Not structural design, but at least the background and the header of the blog. Hope to do something good this year. :3

I can't sleep

And I don't know if that matters.

I feel like a trembling in my emotional zone. Disruption of area by the Impact of a Message, a blow of the mind of someone who can easily throw those ideas effectively without hesitation and doubt. My counter response was nullified, was stopped by my own Resource of Equilibrium before the action was made.

Why could be that, the Internet, having a wide variety of sorts, can be limited on the actions in real life?
The actions made in real life are much huge than the Internet can recollect. Basically all the same thing. Kinda gloomy the last statement. That's why people give meanings and think about it.

A bunch of data saved on servers made by people, the fact that the people have made it has its own repercussions, both in space, and in time, in popularity, and importance by the ones who pointed to that data. Some people don't realize it, what that data could affect in others' minds. I can maintain my own position by the fact that this blog is still ongoing, since its start. But it's popularity isn't as great as others.

I could say nothing is more important than the fact I was making the things wrong since start. Insecurity after insecurity, after a desperation to write something, to express myself, to let out everything of myself, to give all to destroy all those bindings who were limiting myself, emotional and mentally. And also my ability to write things without saying to much. And receive appreciation, and kindness, and nice words, and pageviews, at least if someone could have seen it. It's a plus.

And, I still think that my world that is outside of the screen of the Digital World is still uncomfortable, because mainly all what I do here is not projecting  to the Real World, I don't know if my family sees what I do, or what I have done.

I was thinking about having the first 100 drawings I've made so far, and print them, give them a webpage, kind of a showing case/portfolio, even if there're not as professional, or not even in the hobbyist notation, or maybe it might be. Then show it in a place where they can see what I draw, only because it's fun to me to draw. But even I am afraid of showing this to most of the people I know.

I tried, but I think I need to try harder.

But I hope to continue, at least fulfilling this year's resolutions, that aren't clearly made but I can show them.

And then we have another year:

Alternative Title: Hello 148th post... >////<

And I should address that I haven't got the time to make a final post of the year, where I should have made the stats of the year. I should do it right now.
(I just need to get into my mind how I made the last one)

Since May 1st 2011 I have published with this a total of 148 posts, trying to explain my progressive actions of life about being shy and trying to expose and express myself to the world, sharing what I see and what I learn from you.
Having DeviantArt, twitter, Tumblr deleted but its going to going online again, and other related User-name things, my stand upon the name of Erick Medina as a "Standard Nerd Boy" has provided me motivation to follow my life into making nice things.

Now I have 4 stories, I should make more, maybe double it. I had like 3006 page views overall, minus the 1251 of the overall of last year, so last year was the most visited. The 2 most visited blog post of this year were, "A Majora's Mask Post", and the poem post "The sound of Silence"

Expectation was to finish last year with 128 posts, but time shortage and a lot of things to do (including developer's work >///<) made me wanted to ending in 64 posts, but I just got 51.
What I'll do is, make 12 more posts including this, what I'll name: "The posts I'll should do time ago", in which I would do some posts I could have done at certain age of my life, I'm having a bit of an issue if I plan to do it once in a month, because, of maybe not, if I double again to 128 post expectation, for each month at most I should do 11 posts, so, 12 posts a month is going to be fine. And we could finish it the end of the year at 256 posts. Hehe such a binary nerd >///<

First thing to think is ask if I'll change my background of this post. And then do it, make a little layout change. And think for the first 12 posts of this month. It's January the 5th so we're going to start at a great pace :3 Hope now it works, or maybe I'll try to make a variation if possible.

So, have a nice good year and hope to see you here more often :3