Childish Ideas, and Joyful Memorandums

Sorry if I talked about this before, but I didn't find on my other posts something similar to this. (Hope I don't repeat it)

And another sorry if it gets a little gloomy on my way to talk, not too harsh but not a happy thing too.

     April 30th, here in Mexico, is Children's Day.  Expectations on why this day is unknown. But well, just figures.

     I had a bunch of ideas as I child. Those were kinda decisive on the way I am now. The thing is, I'm not the child I was, in terms of, my personality on when I was a child has been in a lower state, but not in terms of actions and events or happy things, but because of some personality I had. 

     I was the guy I can do lots of things at School, like any other child, I would play ball at recess, be in a certain spot with other classmates, having fun while playing tag or when hiding. But also I had that belief of being good in class. I got very good in class. In fact I felt different from others. I knew I was the best in the class. I knew I had to prove it to everyone.

     Third grade, some new guy enters school, one of the first challenges was to overcome him in grades, he was good too. I got focused on him. Until 6th grade, he was a challenging opponent. People would technically notice that ambiance, mostly because me shouting at things. 

     Third grade, again. Some guy again, I was fooled by some magic trick he made on first grade. A challenging guy but I didn't made a proper trace, they say he was a genius but nothing else, I got him unnoticed. 

     Fourth grade, I knew who were the best, boys and girls, and who was the people that were being behind.  I felt the everyday challenge to be serious, even at home I made that possible. 

     Fifth and sixth grade, the start of a change, still unnoticed by that. My best friend, even if at home was a great companion, at school, he was a different person. I wouldn't care, I mostly spent my recess alone, with other people, playing at the most unusual places at school, I didn't talk at school, and somehow I got hated by people, my own classmates, because of my personality, who wouldn't stop telling my expertise of action, and because of my lack of caring. I wouldn't care, their talking were uncomfortable to me, I didn't like it. 

Their games was the only thing I got. 

I had friends 2 years before elementary school ending. And then everything would change....

     Weird experiences as a child, such as unexpected kissing (regardless who they were... o.o), tickle fight of death (hehe), handslap resistance (I don't know how I did like that at 6th grade, it was one day), lots of rejection, lots of crying, and lots of misunderstanding, from my parents, from my classmates, from my teachers, and from my friends.

     Little they know if they let me go on my own, I wouldn't continue the same way, and that's what I thought as a child.

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     And my little brother brought a couple of friends home. They brought games, Smash Bros Brawl, Zelda, Mario Party and others. I got beaten at one match, but as he see is as a nice victory, I just say, it was just the controller...

    Then I showed them Pokemon X, one friend was good telling which pokemon were, but he also needs to know whose type are super effective/not very effective against other pokemon.

     That's one of the things I can share on people they still to know about life, my brother being different from myself, doing a great job. I hope he gets better.

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Aaand...

     Some notification reminded me around this month about something I just forgot. There is something I want to tell, I don't know if the title can be the proper one, oh wait, I had one. 

"The one who Introduced me to the Internet World"

It's a rather off-topic title, with a nice meaning. I just need to do it...

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And tomorrow, "A Nerd's Adventure" hits it's Third Anniversary.

I don't know if three years are a lot but I think it is. :)

Worrying People

That's one of the things I haven't really experienced...

    I wasn't such an influence back on my days of School, and even if they could see me all the time, I would be sure in a way they wouldn't care, or that's what I thought. I didn't have lots of friends, the few I had didn't have problems handling strong conversations. There are a few of them that I really wanted to become friends, but technically it didn't happen. Back then I was trying my best to talk to them, but somehow a concrete bonding wasn't there, the experience of getting on the people and not responding to it wasn't pleasant. But then they seem to acknowledge the fact though nothing else was done.

    And all these years of trying and trying was another experience I was making my effort. Effort to stop repressing my emotions and thoughts. My years On-line as a User and all what I found when I'm here, it was grateful. All and its extended resolutions, I managed to get in touch to a few more people. On-line of course. I started to talk more and more, as it were easy to do it, it was fun.

    But then what I feared was coming to approach. But I was prepared to face it, because I knew it by experience... I could talk but then a dissonance of voices, and then the differences turning into a higher point, it becomes something in which, I can't have an idea to overcome this by talking.

    Because I make some effort in talking, more if it's an unknown path, I can't make again with the same effort give a back-to-track message, unless certain conditions are met.

One of those conditions is, the person talking to were worried about myself...

    Action noted, it could be a message of sorts or some mention. Anything that makes again the connection is enough. Another condition is actually make that back-to-track message, explaining how do you feel. On each part if a retribution is made, the bonding will try its best to regain its power.

    Now then, lately I've been a little sleepy, on those stages, I'm more Introverted than anything else, but somehow I over-exceeded my Introversion. I didn't say anything about it, that I would take a break, that I need a great recharge, both physically and emotionally, that I need to deal with some problems, and that I needed more content to share and manage to talk, because I felt I was saying the same all the time.... It's not like it's going to be the same as before, but at least I want to feel comfortable the time I wanted to return.

    But, what I wasn't expecting is, people telling me where I am, and how's everything going. A little few got nothing from me, worrying enough to make a state of presence and send me a message. The moment I knew it, I was, first surprised by a normal sudden anxiety from the recovery motion of Re encounter, and then a little frustrated and sad, because of feeling how selfish I was with those people.

    I mean, it's not that the User Position is all important, the real world has its own challenges. Amazing challenges :B . But, as explained before, I just went away for a little while, and  chaos surrounded the path I made with much effort. It's not like it's destroyed, it's just that I need to build more light to iluminate the path.

The path once made, it can be easily followed with the right compass. 

Buy the console, play Smash Bros!!

It's always been like this.

    Let's talk about the game of excellence in terms of competition and fun for many of us nerds who has the love about Nintendo Games: Super Smash Bros. Since I was a child, this was a reason you can play with your friends and have some fun with it. When it comes to smash bros, everyone wants to play it.

    I can tell I've play all of those and I love it with each of their features. This is one of the reasons I know more games like MOTHER/Earthbound, Kid Icarus and Animal Crossing, and to know more about other known games like Kirby, Zelda, F-Zero, Yoshi Island, Fire Emblem, Metroid, in recent games Sonic, and many more.

    I just saw the recent Nintendo Direct, and I was soo impressed! I know by each generation of consoles, better graphics and movements are a must. But those kind of graphics made me feel to actually play it on that console. I have a Nintendo 3DS, and I was expecting to play it on there, but when I saw all those graphics, my expectations went higher!

    Though it may be dumb (and that's the reason of the title), but buying a Wii U to play Smash Bros is going to be the hit of the year, and a Christmas present, I could see it playing it on that day, and I could imagine all of those gamers wanting it for Christmas too, hehe.

    And so, what else I can say about it? Despite the expectations of wanting to train for it, the feeling of the graphics and the moves, smash attacks, their special moves and their Final Smash, the new features is something I would expect more. And also playing with my favorite characters, Ness has been one of then, since the fist game I liked to play with him. I think he's a must character, because he's always there.

     I want the 3DS game, having a portable smash bros is the most wanted thing, and it would be delightful the graphics would be at least more visual than the Meele version. I wonder who would be the ones who wants to play that with me.

    If my brother knows about it, I think he would like it more, after his Mincraft and Bravely Default playing. I need time to play those more :B

Collective Ponderations of a Monday Morning

     Lately the pressure was getting over me again, and even though it was just a matter of not being able to sleep last night, it was still annoying. You are supposed to recover from your sleep and gain more energy to tomorrow. You know important things comes on Mondays and though we might not grasp it at all, all we have to do is have a nice and pleasant dream.

     I knew somehow I woke up late last day, and that it wouldn't let me get into a proper sleep. I was just thinking about things. Life, own expectations, a little bit of ranting of myself, and future *place a squidward saying "Future..!"* . Also, people's lives, where am I going to be in the next few years, and how to get all problems solved before the real problem that is surviving life. And also, the always question of who am I, who are the others I see around, who are the people I rarely (but usually for me) hang out or talk to. And also, what dumb/silly things I am doing to impress others, to be admired, or to be envious or to be I the one I can change their lives. It's not like it happens everyday but I'm sure it does :3

     That's when later on the day I discovered, I wasn't alone on that thinking. Surprisingly, lots of people got worried that night. People handling work, school things on the morning, people wanting to change things, people overcoming issues and lots of over-thinking, and people just trying to get some time to sleep, maybe by doing other things just to lose time. If they don't need to get up early, maybe they can have this to enjoy.

    But, one thing is thinking and thinking about it, and  another is not thinking about it at all. And in between thinking and not thinking, I lose time to make big decisions. I could be doing better things instead of thinking it too much, making conclusions is important. But as I said, it's a matter of  believing in myself and make other believe in themselves, so that a Motivational Point can be reached and the Flow of Action can be done.

    I won't think that people because of their experiences wouldn't take a chance to follow what their believe and follow their dreams, I just think that people are amazing to have a nice talk, or at least share the same things. People on the Internet, in a nice world. I tend to forget I need to get out to see people outside, just to make note this is not as important as everything else in the world. This is only a way I can achieve better things, this is the way I can share my thoughts with you.

   With that, I log off, and hope to write more.