Hello, 96th post!

So, this is a post to make an acknowledge for the post and statistics made in this year:
"A Nerd's Adventure", started on May 1st 2011 has completed with this, 96 posts, talking about lots of issues of life and other daily lives that seems normal for some people, but special for me. My expectations are expressing all those special emotions on those normal activities. Since then, my User-type Motion and my confidence have increased since then, leading toward new adventures in the Internet Space like DeviantArt, tumblr, some forums and some other games, standing upon the nickname of  the "Standard Nerd Boy"
On this year I have increased my number of stories made by 2, making it 3, then I have made some random posts, some Nerd Issues and Life Issues, and even though this blog is quite unattended for some, it has been like my point of motivation in maintain it anyway, because at least it makes me feel like I can share at least a little of who I am. So it's up to you to follow it....  heheheh.

Up to now, we have received 1251 visits to the blog (minus the 322 of the last year... :P ) Competing with the overall posts, the most clicked post was on "Expressing Introversion out of your known space..."(a post of 2011), followed by "Friendship is..."(a post of 2012), so this last post was the most selected on the time it was published

I feel weird that this year ends, because I have made lots of things on this year, that it will have a difference the moment I made something on the next year. But it's a thing we all have to face. Seeing on the last post of 2011 and then the starting drawings on my notebook. I'm sure I have increased my skills and made lots of changes, now for the 2013 I will search for the level up as soon as possible to make an evolution and have new and fresh ideas to make presentation.

So, hope you have a good day :D

Random Post of the month

A random post for the end of December. I don't think people would say the ending days of December, because after that month ends, a new year comes. By now several celebrations are being held in all around the world. And the Great Impulse of the TimeLine that passes over the sky traveling towards west is always in movement.
You'll see that new things are to come this year. I wonder, how people would like this moment of the year most than other times of the year of the same level as the New Year Celebration? Because 11/11/11 was a day, 12/12/12 was another day, and still then people made something about it. Of course it's a day, we could make a good celebration, but we all are having classes or staying at home, at work, at school, it's not like we're going to make a party everyday because of something little. If we're having a New Year Celebration is because we are grateful to live another year more, because a year has a lots of things to talk about.
If I were to propose something for the next year, it could be that I can be a little less shy, but a little bit more into myself. That the things that I think on that year could make it true and that no adverse Ideas could interfere on what I really want. Something special in order to have an increase in my levels of confidence and sympathy. Just having fun and share good moments with you.
So, let's hope for the best in this year :D

December Forecasted Crying...

Because I am a man that can admit, that I CAN’T HANDLE ALL THOSE FEELINGS AND END UP BEING A CRYBABY AND ALL THOSE THINGS MAKES ME FEEEEEL......
...sad.
>//<
(my hands are trembling and I can’t properly write....)
I cried because of anxious ideas, lost opportunities, fake reasons, weird unhandlable support towards others, some sad music, some normal music that I make them meaningful, some games, and games that they just don’t want that I can win all the time ><
I just was a little down. That’s all. But of course I was happy for lots of things that happened. It’s just that sometimes when you don’t consider that, you get down on the ideas. And because of that you can be sad.
Or maybe because I can’t handle all the info, or I can’t handle being alone all the time, or because I can’t handle other things that seems to be easy. User-type has to deal with this, so instead of being dependant on the User-type, you can have a meetup with your friends.
So your vacations have a lot of adventure, and because it’s cool to have one.

Asking for Christmas Presents...

Well, I didn't receive some presents this Christmas.... I don’t care that anyway, but at least we had the chance of having a good time that day. I think this will be a short post, I don’t know if I can develop more than I can....
I’m not accustomed to receiving lots of Christmas gifts, I used to have when I was a child, and now I only can have one thing at a year, or at Christmas, but it was worth it. I’m glad that at least I have something to play or to entertain myself, with some music or some video game, but it’s not also that I would always want something.
Now, the thing is, having presents for me is not as bad as it looks, maybe some friend would have sent me some letter or something super special.... But the thing is: something weird isn't getting me clear.
Why buy something to have, if you can’t make a good sharing with the ones you care the most? How do the things I buy would affect them? If I buy some clothes different from my style, they would likely to be surprised and they would have a different perspective of me. If I buy certain video games  certain t-shirt, certain accessories, certain movies or certain devices, they would see me different.
That maybe doesn't make sense, but sometimes people tend to change, but people tend to see the others as if they were the same all the time, they won’t want them to change.... They want to be the same so they can be together because of that similar thought they had that made them start their friendship....
So, I don’t know..., maybe there’s something special on gifts and because of that people seems to be happy to it. Because they think that with that gesture of gratitude they think others care for them.
Don’t worry if you didn't receive a present. Sometimes we think we should receive something cool. The thing cool would be support and friendship and other more important things....
I’m just confused, I can’t continue with this.... It’s only a motion of the general idea of not taking things too seriously, and live the present. This post is an example.

Worldwide User-Type Christmas Celebration

    Hello there. So, Christmas technically has arrived now, and in all around the world by each hour people are having all kinds of special dinners and a good family reunion.
    It is the time where they spend more on gifts and food and wish lists to be completed. Millions of kids have the illusion of something or someone who grants them a very nice toy (or a sophisticated device...?). And other people are wishing that someone special, or at least some close parent to give them presents, just because they feel the need to be cared.... Some people are unlikely to celebrate Christmas, and some others don’t know what Christmas essentially means....
    I saw how people are hasty in buying gifts and food and everything they need. Lots of car lines waiting to park into some shopping center and then enter and see lines of people waiting to get some cake, some prepared food, something done just to return home and wait for the great day to come. Of course we had to make something special too; otherwise I wouldn't have seen the people and their rush of the family reunion.
    I know something different would come in those holiday celebrations, but I can’t blame something I haven’t done before, just because other people usually have that tradition of family gathering. At night is when we celebrate the dinner with something very delicious and with music and other cool stuff. And then wait until 12 o’clock to see that Christmas indeed has arrived and we wait a little longer until we return to our rooms and rest for the morning. Just by then we would search for some gifts to us, and maybe to some special one (a friend maybe, I know, my lack of targets for gifts are very low.... u_u)

    I could want to receive gifts at this day, but it’s not very necessary. I could also spend the time with friends and other persons, but maybe friends are spending their time with their families making a greater party, or maybe with someone very special... (which I don’t have any of those..., wait, did I dare to say that...?). People would be very delightful to have a great time with friends and boyfriends or girlfriends or whatever, thinking less of everything else. Me who can’t have all of those so easily, because it could be difficult, with friends I can’t elevate to the third level, or even spending the time outside my house (look my unwilling desire of not going out because I don’t know what would happen and it could lead me in an uncomfortable situation.... >//< ).
    I know I haven’t experienced something extraordinary yet, and my life, even with my personal breakdowns, is less suffering that others’ life..., which made me reconsider sometimes, but that doesn't mean I wouldn’t want to receive some love from people [Love referring as an essential definition of charity and affection, natural from whatever social relation: parents, friends, lovers, general people....], I know my natural personality demands attention more than any other average people, even with my reserved and quiet personality, but I think it would be very wonderful to experience the sharing laughs and the sharing activities and chatting, something that makes me forget going to the dark side of my thoughts... :P
    But, making a resume of all this, (and seeing the time left I have... hehe) I think that even if we have negative thoughts, we must try at least remind of something good so we can feel right with us, and so we can enjoy Christmas Eve and Christmas Day :)
    Meanwhile, and because I can, I could send lots of messages with my friends, classmates, users and people that might need a little motivation from us. I hope that you like my Specific Motivation Point.
 
 Have a nice holiday :D

A Nerd’s Holiday Moment of Daily Chores

    Holidays are here now, all last December starting at the middle of the month, and people are hasty to make the usual preparation and family reunion to make lots of celebration. Of course it’s a great chance to make something with a special meaning.
    And this is the time where I take the chance to spend the free time I have to make something I haven’t done days before. That is daily chores of the house. The usual thing I do is making the bed and even having a little order in my room, but since last days, I can have the chance of do a little makeover to my room, something little nothing big. But somewhat I have to make more daily chores than others usually do. Things like washing dishes and some dirty clothes, and brush the dust out of our rooms, something simple to do.
    It has a meaning though, if I can learn better how to do those kinds of activities, I could be more confident the time I could live on my own, I believe. Knowing the maintenance of the house and the cautions of each room and each tool to use is going to be useful later on.
    I could think also in making some last-minute decorations maybe in my room, so I can have space for something nice to have. I haven’t decided yet if I would place a poster, or some funny plush toy, I don’t know, something I could think that I’m having a good time on this holidays.
    Usually I get up and turn on the computer, so some important stuff or having a nice anime or movie to watch, something to spend the time. Actually I have lots of activities to do, file archiving and some cleaning. Although my holidays would be something different, I think I’m starting to accustom those changes....
    So, another post was made, I think I would end this year with 100 posts, or at least with 96, last year I have made 32, this year I would double that number. So, have a nice week! I hope to write another post tomorrow.... so see you Christmas Eve :D

Great Support Gathering Motion

"Great Support Gathering Motion" is about to begin.
I need your help.
It's just a matter of a minute or two of your attention in order to  obtain valuable motivational words of wisdom from you. There are some points of my life that were left behind unfinished, some rupture between all a timeline that were corrupted and never repaired. Some points that I have been carrying all the time that weren't useful to make new changes. I'm trying to repair all of them.
Also the motivational wisdom will be able to unlock most of the blocked memories and inhibitions so the light on the Position can shine brighter like the time before all those weird things happened around me. If I couldn't get on you the same way you do on others, it's because of some blocked motion.
I know I can't tell everything in order to make attention, and I know I wouldn't use my experiences so I can get something, but it is just a moment of attention that I lacked sometimes... I didn't want to say it, but sometimes I feel that loneliness covers around me, and I feel kinda sad about it. I know that I can recover from it whatever I want, but I just don't want to live that way if I know I can be more than what I am right now.
I know also that I don't demand friendship a lot, even if people seems to be the ones who want to be heard, caring less to others. I know if I keep this is because I can live with that, but I know that it will be one time that I would not stand upon that living.
I don't know what to obtain from all this, I just know I'm different from all the people, and that if I have to do those kind of actions in order to make an attention to everyone, just to make a great repair, is because I'm just a different person, who lived different things, and thought different ideas...
I just want to do the things better, but resources seems to lack on me, I just couldn't get all the info to make a good sharing, so maybe I'm not the best on all this. I know people care. I know people are social. I know I can overcome all this, and then renew myself.
So yeah. I can give you motivations, like this: Just be happy and do what you need to do!
I feel my shyness is getting less prominent, even though is nice to act awkward to silly moments. Maybe I don't care less of what I do, people seems to consider my way of life, I guess..., so after I feel from the wisdom of you that I'm just in the right direction, a little change and be clear to be a better person. And so make a great consideration to you, like you do to other people.
Have a nice day!

Between trips to the mall and holiday posadas

    Lots of things to do and so little time..! >////< I hope you have some holiday season and give a good meaning on those last days of the year, hehehe....
    Ok, writing session of today. It’s mid-December!! D: And I haven’t got presents, or gifs, or something to share, or some experience to tell as always >.< ....
    Ok no, I had some, last time I had the courage to do something on my own. I went to the mall.... [Centro Comercial in English is shopping center/mall ,so.... shopping center.... hehe] It was like, I have some money to spend, but, what do I need the most right now, I thought. I needed how I was going to spend it.
    It was a normal Saturday morning, my usual user Motion update characterization on the computer and my usual and calm playing. I think I was willing to buy something but I didn't want anyone to prevent me from doing it, or looking at me with poor eyes.... I know I would buy something from them, but not now.... But in the afternoon, I went to a near shopping center to buy something special. I was aiming for some earphones, some cool earphones so I could hear with all clear frequencies the music, and maybe something else.
    I hear the palpitations of my heart with each step into the shopping mall; it was quite long with lots of stores and restaurants. I went around the mall and then I entered some electronic American shop. I saw instantly the earphones section, and with some searching I saw the ones I could pay for. But I got out of the store to look for other choices. Into the shopping center there was a big Christmas tree. I think since the start of the month that tree was there. Of course it’s holiday season.... Then other shops, some movie theater, a games shop, another electronic specific shop, some clothing shops and some grocery store.
    After I saw all options, there was no other than the earphones that I saw first. So I returned to claim the price and then I bought it. And then I returned home and when I tried it, the sound was awesome, so I like it.
    Then I was invited to some party, what we call "Posada" It’s just another party, but it has a meaning too, whatever they want to put it.... But the essence is the reminder of gratitude and good wishes, we all want good things to happen....
    Normal things, I just have known most of the people invited, so I wasn't as uncomfortable..., it was a good time, I suppose... hehe.
    So, as I said, lots of things to do >///<. I’ll do my best to end this year, even if I have to make everything in a rush :I

Just a Normal Post of 0x0C

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Thoughts from last days - A time to talk about problems

    Hello, this is the time where I worry about my writing blog and start to make a great use of my creativity to make good posts and make as much as possible. So let’s get started now.

    I took a little time break to focus on some important issues to attend, and now that we are on December I’m glad that I can do lots of other things, but it seems like I have miscalculated the time I would really have that time. I can wait until mid December, but I need to make some adjustments so I can increase little by little the normal activities under my nickname (StndNerdBoy11).

    This is just an acknowledge point for this blog so you don’t be worried of myself, hehe. It’s just like lately I’m having one of those moments in my life where you feel like lost, like you don’t know what to do, like you don’t know why are you’re doing the things you have done until that day. I think that’s a normal thing, even though I don’t have a lot of energy to overcome more on that so I don’t fall again.

    Maybe it’s just because I don’t know if my life is normal enough to follow it or maybe it’s just because I don’t want to make a lot of effort..., because, It’s like you have some resources to talk to anyone, and you don’t do it.... You want some people talk only to you and you want some people to make a good conversation.... And also when you feel like going somewhere but you don’t have courage to go because you want to go with someone, or when you want to overcome something you can’t do it, but the ambiance is not enough so you can talk about it, something like that.... It’s seems like it’s like something normal.

    Because, if people don’t think that’s a problem, they shouldn't worry too much about it, because they know what to do. And it’s easy for them to do it, because when they know your problems they tell you that’s easy and that it’s only a matter of doing it. But what they can’t realize it’s your life and you have different problems that usually make a different obstacle, and that your comfort zone would yell if you step away from that zone....

    Maybe that’s my excuse of not doing it, maybe I have mislabeled in a different way or maybe they have mislabeled me wrongly. I may follow the label for some reason, but not completely. The problem with labels is that the moment they put one on you the most probable thing to happen is believe in that label, yourself, your parents, your friends, everyone. People in general tend to follow other people’s labels, and people tend to think fast and make attributions out of analysis. So if some event happened the labeled person would attribute his problems with what he has, but doing nothing about solving it. It’s a form of selfishness, thinking the others must do something about your problems....

    And so on, I would end one night or two feeling anxious about it, but it just passes away. I can’t blame about it, but it’s a reminder that I have to take a chance of getting up and make the try again, even if I fall again.

    I hope in another day to fix the things left behind and make my position active again. Just wait for it >///<.